long time no post....lots of updates

Long time no write here I know, I'm sorry for that, I had started a tumblr blog and so I've been doing some writing there, but I just really havent been doing a ton of online writing these past months, life has been pretty crazy at times...but I'm back and I'm going to make sure to post more...so yeah I really do want to build this blog back up too...
anyway my last post was in July...let see since then...

-the ex left....he's living with his dad
-in Aug I went to Alturas CA to visit one of my sisters, that was so fun =) she and I had fun together
-court date in sept...final judgement was ruled...I got most custody of the girls (the ex agreed to it....)
-Divorce officially FINAL Sept 25
-in Oct the girls and I took a train to Denver CO to see my other sister, that was a blast, she got married, I was her maid of honor, and it was a really beautiful wedding, and we hadnt seen eachother in over 2 years so it was awesome to reconnect in person and be crazy together again lol.
-came back home oct 16th and the ex took the girls for a few days
-I moved into MY OWN PLACE!!!!!! I got my own 2 bedroom apartment! it is SO cute I absolutely LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!!
-girls came back like three days later, that was the last I heard from him for a month...I tried contacting him to see if he wanted to see them but apparently he had better things to do then see his kids...he finally contacted me a few days before thanksgiving, he tried to blame the lack of contacting on me for only texting him BUT if he had wanted to see his kids he could have called or texted me or asked me how they were....but no...anyway he wanted to take the girls for either thanksgiving or christmas....I said no....my reasons are if he didnt want to see them on a regular day then why should he (someone who does NOTHING for them 90% of the time) get to take them on a special day...sorry...I am all for him taking them after...but I am getting them for the paticular days this year...so I had the girls on thanksgiving....it was really nice...so now he thinks he's getting them for christmas because I had them for turkey day, I've told him he's not but he thinks he is...and that infurriates me....because the way he acts it's his way or no way...he tries to say its coz he "cares" about his kids....I actually laughed at that and I told him if he really cared he would have called or contacted me during that month and at least asked HOW THEY WERE DOING....but no....not even that....when he has them I call and text at least once a DAY to ask how they are...and to ask him to kiss them for me...but yeah....so I'm sorry but he cannot have them christmas day...it is our FIRST christmas in our new apartment! He has proven by his actions (actions speak LOUDER then words) that he only wants them when it's convienent for him, if it's not convienent then he couldnt be bothered...and when a person goes a whole month not even inquiring about the wellfare of his spawn I'm sorry but no....he doesnt get them for the biggest major holiday of the year...not gonna happen....and I will not allow him to bully me (coz thats what his actions have always done) into caving...I'm not giving in...now if he wants to have them the day after or even in the afternoon on christmas, I'm open to it...I had asked him if he was wanting to take them before and he said well yeah christmas is still a month away...I kinda laughed again at that and I told him well "you didn't get them last month so how am I to know"
but yeah he thinks he can just walk all over me and I'll be a doormat like I was in the past when we were married....but you know what, I've found my voice again, and I know that I do not have to lie down and take that abuse (because that's exactly what it is, it's emotional abuse) so I am going to stand up for myself and for my kids, who need to be with their mother in our new apartment on christmas morning...
so yeah, I am not contacting him at all....I'm not going to call or text him....I am going to see if he actually contacts me without being reminded that oh hey he has kids...so we'll see...
oy...I've been really having to depend on God lately for calm....well I do that always but yeah even more so now...and I know that God has a plan for me, and He has someone out there for me who is everything He has for me...I have a few people that have gone all "holier then thou" on me saying oh I need to either stay single or marry the ex again....well honestly I completely disagree...I fully believe that God has a man out there for me...I have never once felt the Holy Spirit leading me to a life of singleness....and I've been praying about it like a lot....what people dont get is God is forgiving....people just look on the law...unforgiving side....but God is merciful, forgiving and loves unconditional, so yeah I got a divorce....I've repented and God is now bringing me down the path He originally intended, and I am being faithful...because honestly it's not between me, God and the world....it's simply between me and God...no one else knows what goes on between me and God so they have no room to judge...so yeah I've been dealing with that but now it is getting better, and things are going a lot better now....
God has been blessing me with so much, I'm growing in my church, my family and friends are amazing in helping and supporting me through all this.
anyway I'm not really going to be writing a whole lot about the ex unless I need to rant or something major comes up, but I did want the readers to know a little about the crap I'm dealing with right now...but yeah God is putting me back together and I know He's preparing me for something coming in the future and I cannot wait.

anyway that's pretty much all that's been going on...now I'm just trying to get everything ready for Christmas, and I've started a diet, the past 3 days I've lost 6lbs, so I'm on my way....this time I am bound and determined to go through with this, I'm doing this phase till Christmas, then after new years sometime I'll be going again to get to my ideal weight...I'm excited about getting down to that, I miss my normal food though...but hopefully when I'm all done with it I can eat my normal food...just less of it....lol...
so yeah that's about it...

Much Love
Krysten

lots been going on

Wow, it's been a while since I've posted anything...I mean the last post was talking about giving up Twilight and paranormal movies and books....but a lot has gone on in my life lately....my husband and I separated again this time for the last time, a few months ago, I continued with the divorce and  I'm getting it finalized. things had just not changed and I just wasnt able to step into my destiny because spiritually he wasnt allowing me to, I mean my view on it is if God wants him and I back together He will change my heart and work it out....but if not I have full faith that God will bring me a man after His own heart.
so yeah, I've been working on getting a car now (the ex got the car) and all that stuff.
but the most important thing I've been doing is really getting back into God even more, and as I've been doing that He has really been speaking to me and showing me His heart, He's been giving me visions and speaking to me, its been really amazing.

one of the major things He's been speaking to me, is the importance of waiting...I had made the mistake last time of not waiting till marriage to have sex....but He's asked me to wait this time, so I am. because I believe that is part of Him bringing me into my destiny that He has for me...so yeah

thats pretty much what's going on...God's doing some amazing things in my life and things have been awesome.

Love always
Krysten

Getting it right

I have been doing some real searching and  praying and God revealed to me the dangers of Twilight and paranormal books and movies….there are occult practices in them, and in other things there is witchcraft…and God clearly told us to stay away from these things…He told us to focus on what is True and Noble and Righteous….I mean twilight has vampires…vampires are considered dead….so that is technically necromancy…which God warns about and He calls detestable…Vampirism is rooted in occult lore and vampires are thought to be the physical manifestations of diabolically empowered entities, sometimes called the undead Twilight taps into the seductive, but delusional, occult theme that there are both good and bad demons and that a relationship with the right occult entities can help one ward off the really bad demons. Twilight is especially huge among many Wiccans and neo-pagans because of its occult themes and due to the positive PR it gives to the idea of “good” witches and “good” covens.

Tragically, many Wiccans have been deceived into believing they can have relationships with good spirits and cast good spells, when in reality, they have opened the door to demonic oppression and even demon possession. After many Wiccans open the door to the demonic realm, they are then taught that they can use counter spells to summon good spirits to protect them from evil spirits. This device has been effectively utilized by Satan to delude the prospective Wiccan by promising power, while enslaving them to an occult construct. Sadly, the vampire, Edward, is cast as a romantic supernatural hero, whose net affect in the real world gives ample fuel to the occult lie that there are good dark spirits.Many Wiccans, sadly, never come to realize that Satan is running a good cop, bad cop con game, or in their case, good demon, bad demon as though one can be played against the other. God has revealed in His Word that spirits contacted by occult means are evil and part and parcel of Satans original rebellion (Ephesians 6:10-12). Gods Word is saturated with categorical warnings against all forms of the occult, including astrology, sorcery, divination, magic and witchcraft. (Gen. 3:1-6; Ex. 22:18; Lev.19:26, 31-32, 20:6, 27; Deut.18:10-12; 1 Sam.15:23a; 2 Kings 21:6, 23:24; I Chron.10:13; Isa. 2:6, 8:19-20, 19:3, 47:13-14; Ez.13:20-23; Dan.2:27-28, 5:15-17; Mal. 3:5; Acts 13:7-10a, 16:16-18, 19:19; Gal. 5:19-20; Rev 9:19-21, 21:8, 22:15, etc.)

I am also not watching harry potter anymore, because it is blatent witchcraft…now God NEVER distinguishes between “white” or “black” magic….its all witchcraft to Him and He says stay away from it all…anyway I’m not going to judge anyone about this…this is just my personal choice and that was why I deleted my last blog…

anyway this website was very informative to me: http://www.goodfight.org/a_co_twilight_harrypotter.html

so yeah that’s my stance on it all now…and I mean it was SO hard for me to decide because I was what you would consider a “Twi-hard” I LOVED twilight, I loved edward, bella, etc…and it took away from my time with God.
now I had a friend tell me that it would only effect non well grounded Christians….now I know that this friend meant that it wouldnt effect me…but it hurt because how it sounded was that I wasnt a “well grounded” christian…now I KNOW this friend did NOT mean it like that in the least, but yeah it doesnt just effect baby-christians….I’m pretty well grounded, and I can honestly say it took away from my time with the Lord, it took away from bible reading, worship, everything….I didnt “let” it happen….but by choosing to read and watch those I subconsiously allowed the enemy to come in and mess with me….and it actually did effect me...I mean I started reading other books like the immortals series...and they have blatent spells and witchcraft in there, among all the other occult related stuff in there...I started watching true blood, which is on HBO so you know there's all sorts of stuff, but it had vampires, voodoo, witchcraft, you know...all the stuff that God says to stay away from...so it was really a downhill spiral...I didnt WANT it to but it effected me, my attitude, what I said, just everything....looking back now I hated it...I stopped hearing God, worship was actually work to try and get to that place...so yeah...

anyway so that’s my heart…my goal is to now start majorly focusing on God’s presence, repent, and get back into the Word, and major worship 

I know that God is going to bless this so I’m hopeful….anyway I ask Blessing and openness on anyone who reads this…let the Holy Spirit speak to your heart :)

With Love

Krysten

Trusting God with the Unknown....

I don't know what to do exactly....

One of my friends is going through major stuff right now, and I'm not able to be there for her in person....last night when I found out what was going on, I just wanted to take the car and drive right out to her....it really really sucks being so far away. But I mean I had talked with her on the phone last night and I listened...but then God gave me a word for her He basically said that she needs the Blood covering back, she needs to ask for her blood covering back and for the Lord to break every curse and every chain holding her down.

so yeah I'm just really praying that God will touch her and take away the chains she has on right now...because honestly you don't have to be defined by your past, or what you have done in your past....your dont have to be "that girl (or boy) who......."....you can choose to let God define who you are...because you are so much MORE then your past....

so yeah...

so last night I was standing outside just talkin' with God, and asking Him all sorts of stuff....but yeah right now I'm needing to be watchful and mindful of certain things, not really sure how their going to turn out but I'm trusting God...

last night I was kinda feeling alone, because there was a lot of stuff running through my head, and the hubby tried to help...but honestly I just needed someone to listen to me ramble and not try to "help"

so I mean he and I are trying, but after I explained what I really needed he was cool about it...so I was talking to God about it all and He just gave me peace....so yeah we'll see how it all works out....

anyway I'm gonna go, but that's generally what was on my mind last night

With Love

Krysten

This is Me

One of my friends from church posted this video on her blog and it totally spoke to me =) 

I spent my whole life almost listening to other people telling me to be quiet, and not speak out, because I'll only look stupid. so I grew up a shy, quiet person.

apparently God has other plans for me, a while ago I wrote that He had spoke to me and told me that I have a lot to say and He wants me to speak out, He will give me the words, so He brought me out of the shy shell and He is bringing me into my destiny.

I know who I am in Christ, I am chosen, appointed, and anointed.

I have a destiny, and a calling, and I am me.

With Love,

Krysten

Spiritual Gifts =)

I totally got a confirmation on what my spiritual gifts are, I mean I knew what they were sort of but I had the confirmation. I took the official online test (I took the written test a long time ago at an old church but yeah)

http://www.kodachrome.org/spiritgift/index.htm

Here is the link if you want to take it too, I totally suggest it because it helps so much to know what your spiritual gifts are so you can walk in all that God has called you to do, and you can accept your calling, because once you start accepting your calling then you are less likely to look at other’s callings and say “hey I’d like to have that one” because that is when jealousy starts coming in.

anyway my spiritual gifts are here

Fri Apr 20 12:51:15 2012 EST
ScoreGraph of ScoreSpiritual GiftStatement / Response

25============Music20 = 548 = 576 = 5104 = 5132 = 5
19============Encouragement6 = 334 = 562 = 190 = 5118 = 5
17============Writing28 = 556 = 184 = 1112 = 5140 = 5
15============Faith9 = 337 = 365 = 593 = 3121 = 1
15============Exhortation8 = 336 = 364 = 392 = 5120 = 1
13============Craftsmanship4 = 532 = 160 = 188 = 3116 = 3
12============Wisdom27 = 355 = 183 = 3111 = 0139 = 5
9==========Discernment5 = 333 = 161 = 389 = 1117 = 1
8=========Pastoring21 = 349 = 377 = 1105 = 0133 = 1
8=========Helps12 = 140 = 368 = 096 = 1124 = 3
7========TonguesSpeaking26 = 354 = 182 = 3110 = 0138 = 0
7========Knowledge15 = 543 = 171 = 099 = 1127 = 0
7========Mercy17 = 545 = 073 = 1101 = 0129 = 1
7========Evangelism7 = 335 = 163 = 191 = 1119 = 1
6=======Teaching24 = 352 = 180 = 1108 = 0136 = 1
6=======Missionary19 = 347 = 175 = 0103 = 1131 = 1
4=====Hospitality13 = 141 = 169 = 097 = 1125 = 1
4=====Miracles18 = 346 = 074 = 0102 = 0130 = 1
3====Apostle2 = 130 = 058 = 186 = 0114 = 1
3====Prophecy23 = 151 = 179 = 1107 = 0135 = 0
3====Poverty22 = 050 = 178 = 0106 = 1134 = 1
2===Leadership16 = 144 = 072 = 0100 = 0128 = 1
2===Administration1 = 129 = 057 = 085 = 0113 = 1
2===Giving10 = 138 = 066 = 094 = 0122 = 1
1==Intercession14 = 142 = 070 = 098 = 0126 = 0
0=TonguesInterpreting25 = 053 = 081 = 0109 = 0137 = 0
0=Healing11 = 039 = 067 = 095 = 0123 = 0
0=Celibacy3 = 031 = 059 = 087 = 0115 = 0

My top 3 are

-Music
-Encouragement
-Writing

now I already pretty much knew this but it was nice to have it confirmed, I have seen how God has used me in these area’s, I do a lot of worshiping and spiritual singing, and I love encouraging people and showing them the love and joy of God, and I also love writing and expressing spiritual things in writing.

so anyway I just really wanted to share because I feel that by sharing I will be kept accountable and accepting my giftings, I mean I already do but this is just a reminder of it hehe.

so yeah I know God is doing awesome things in these areas in my life, and so I am excited about everything He is going to be doing….and I am accepting my callings.

With Love,

Krysten

Ramblings of an Avon Lady....(updates)

Hey, it's been a while I know, I have been super busy.
I started doing Avon leadership along with selling it. (for those who dont know leadership is getting other people on your team to work Avon too) I started last week and I already have 3 people who signed up under me, I only need 2 more and I will become a unit leader and I'll earn about $500 just in bonus checks, and that will only go up as I get more people.

one thing I need to try not to do though....I need to stop taking it personally when people say no...I mean whether I know them or not when they tell me no, yes of course I get discouraged, and a little frustrated (I'm being real and honest here) because I mean honestly I see the potential and the opportunities in Avon, and those who say no to it, I mean I know they just dont see the awesome opportunities I see in it...
my upline (team) said that the biggest excuses they always hear is "I dont have time for it" and then they said that mostly people just dont think that they will make much money with avon, because they have heard stories from other people who quit because they just weren't making money....and I mean I actually got kinda pissed when I heard that last night (at the meeting) because I mean seriously those of us who are working it, it's not like before avon we were just sitting on our butt's doing nothing....I mean seriously, I already have a full time job....I am a mom....I dont just sit around the house....I am always up and down chasing my kids, cleaning, cooking, walking, etc....if anyone doesnt have time....its a mom....but I see the opportunity in this....and so I make time....
and my team, they are paying their bills with Avon, and even taking vacations on Avon money...so one thing that they told us is whatever you put into it....thats what your going to make....so if you put 110% into Avon then you will make money like crazy....but if you only put like 10% into it then you wont make money....I mean seriously you reap what you sow....

I don't know I just tend to take somethings too personally....I think that's something I need to take to God and say ok Lord, if you want them to work Avon with me then you need to show them the opportunities like You showed me....and I just need to trust Him....

anyway enough of the heavy stuff....my point is I needed to vent....
last night I got honored for what I have been doing with Avon....I got two Avon pins last night at the meeting, I earned the first pin for getting my first recruit, and I got the second one for placing my first $125 order.

so yeah I was thrilled about that because I have been making the time to really work at this because I see the potential in it, I can see the day when my hubby and I can buy a NEW car, and buy a house with the AVON money....I can see the day when the Avon money pays for my trip to israel....I mean I'm looking at going to disneyland for my first time (I'm a disneyland virgin lol) next year with my Avon team, my team is so amazing, I mean it was purely God that I got placed in this downline, seriously....I couldnt ask for a better team of ladies.
so I mean there are a lot of things that are opening up for me in Avon, and I am hitting the ground running....

anyway other things in my life:

I've been singing on the worship team at my church, it's been completely amazing, God has really been working in my life, ministering to me, and showing me some really amazing dreams He has for me.
my hubby and I are going to be going through the 5 love languages dvd series (as per my dad's request, which I absolutely agree with hehe) I mean he and I have been doing a lot better, but I dont just want things to be better, I want things to be GREAT. and I mean God has some amazingly Great plans for us, I really want to start walking in them.
so my main focuses have been on Avon, Family and Church, it's a good combo =)

anyway I've rambled on enough for one day

With Love,
Krysten