I know it's been a while since I've written anything, I do have a lot to catch up on but I wanted to address something that I have been struggling with almost all my life...
it took me a while to get to this point, I never thought of myself as "beautiful" going through my early teen years, I was a bit overweight, so I was shy and self-consious, when I hit 16, 17 and 18 I slimmed down, according to the world's standards I was pretty, and thats how I started seeing myself...I started viewing myself as the world does....
I had kids...I gained weight....and now a days most days I have people making comments about my weight....negative comments....and so I started viewing myself how they view me....it was darn depressing....I mean I had gotten to the point where I wanted to loose the weight so bad that I wanted to basically starve myself to do it....thankfully I havent...
Lately though God has really been speaking to me about this, He has told me through other people how much He loves me and cares about me, and He has also been speaking to me through song, and His Word -Psalm 139:14-16
For You did form my inward parts; You did knit me together in my mother's womb.
14I will confess and praise You for You are fearful and wonderful and for the awful wonder of my birth! Wonderful are Your works, and that my inner self knows right well.
15My frame was not hidden from You when I was being formed in secret [and] intricately and curiously wrought [as if embroidered with various colors] in the depths of the earth [a region of darkness and mystery].
16Your eyes saw my unformed substance, and in Your book all the days [of my life] were written before ever they took shape, when as yet there was none of them.
17How precious and weighty also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How vast is the sum of them!(E)
18If I could count them, they would be more in number than the sand. When I awoke, [could I count to the end] I would still be with You....Jeremiah 1:5
Before I formed you in the womb I knew [and] approved of you [as My chosen instrument], and before you were born I separated and set you apart, consecrating you; [and] I appointed you as a prophet to the nations
...Galations 1:15-16
15But when He, Who had chosen and set me apart [even] before I was born and had called me by His grace (His undeserved favor and blessing), saw fit and was pleased(A)
16To reveal (unveil, disclose) His Son within me so that I might proclaim Him among the Gentiles (the non-Jewish world) as the glad tidings (Gospel), immediately I did not confer with flesh and blood [did not consult or counsel with any frail human being or communicate with anyone]....Isaiah 49:1
LISTEN TO me, O isles and coastlands, and hearken, you peoples from afar. The Lord has called me from the womb; from the body of my mother He has named my name.
...etc etc etc....
He has been telling me to Not even give thought to the negative things people say, my hope is in Him...so today I can say this and actually believe what I'm saying....I am Beautiful! lately I have been walking with more confidence because I actually believe what God tells me and Not the negative things man says.
that being said...I am still dieting....NOT because I dont feel beautiful....nope thats not the issue anymore...right now my body is not healthy....so seeing as it's a temple in God's eyes I need to take better care of it...so I am getting it healthy....
so I just think it's really awesome that God has broken down the lies that the enemy has told me almost all my life about body image...I mean the world says that your only "beautiful" if your stick thin, thats what all the magazines tell you, most movies, almost everything...you get indoctrinated with these lies as a child....But God thinks very differently, He thinks I'm beautiful no matter what :)
anyway I wanted to share...I hope you are as blessed as I was by this....we need to BREAK the lies that the enemy tells us....Girls now a days are told that their bodies are not beautiful unless they are super unhealthily thin, they are bombarded with movies, magazines, and ads selling an unhealthy body image. and it's so sad because it leads to depression, eating disorders, self mutilation, sometimes even suicide....
So we need to Break that, we need to show girls that they are beautiful just the way they are because that's how God see's them.
I myself can totally testify to how much the worlds view on body image has an effect....so I know firsthand the effect it all has....
anyway for those that struggle with body image, look to God, He loves you so much and He thinks you are gorgeous....He created you...
Take Care and God Bless
Krysten
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