future worship leader?? how?

I want what used to be.....*sigh....I should explain

I absolutely LOVE to sing, I love singing worship to God I love ministering to people through song, etc etc etc....well I used to be able to do that, from the time I was 14 till I was 18 I sang on a church worship team where my mom was the worship leader and my dad played the bass, those were some of my happiest times, I loved singing with my mom, and worshiping God, etc...I had started going to a different church after I was 18 though, then I got married and then moved to Fresno, God hooked me up with a worship team down there, and again as short as that was it was some of my happiest times....but during that time, my parents divorced, my mom left the church and she TOTALLY gave up on worship leading and church....I just....I just wish things were like they were, whenever I listen to songs we used to sing together I still cant even finish them without crying, because there's this heaviness in my heart, part of it is because she left worship behind, the other part is because I feel like there's someplace I need to be, I feel like a call on my heart to take up where she left and carry that....I just...I dont know how, I mean I can't play any instrument accept singing...accapella can sound great sometimes but not all the time lol...but I dont know, I feel called to pick up where she left and honor God with music, and minister to people through music....I just dont know where to go with that idea and....I just feel hurt by her, how could it all just be given up and abandoned just like that *imagine me snapping my fingers* I think of all the amazing things we did together and I feel called to continue that....oy...I dont know....I just feel like right now as much as I feel like this is what I NEED to do, I'm just not where I'm supposed to be....but I dont know where I'm suposed to be....I know I'm with God....but I feel almost like I'm lost from the path, I know He is with me though so I'm not horribly worried but still....I have people telling me....I need to be here....or we should move here....some feels right....but others don't and I dont' know if that's my own longings or if God is pulling me somewhere....and if we're suposed to be where we are now, then why arent there any opportunites for us here?....I mean my husband is becoming blessed with his job so thats awesome, but I am seriously feeling like I NEED to be involved in music ministry....I dont even know why I feel this....I mean yeah I love to sing I love to worship, but there are so many people out there more "qualified" then I am....I don't know what God really is thinking lol...I mean I guess thats a good thing but still....

why me?

where should I go?

where should I start?

how do I go about picking up where she left?

I mean I seriously have to ask these questions, if this feeling is from God I should get an answer right? oy....I just really want to make sure that this feeling that I have isnt from me...I want to be sure it's from God because seriously it's all about Him, it's not about me....oy...I started this out as kind of a rant because I cant freaking make it through the songs I used to sing with my mom....but then it's turned into some sort of wondering, wandering....thing....I don't know....I just really really really have an urge to minister to people through music....I wish I knew what to do.....